Drying up

My milk supply has plummeted lately. I've never been an efficient pumper -- in twenty minutes I typically produce under four ounces. Lately it's more like two.

I've been using the weekends to nurse X frequently and get my supply back up. But since he's been sick and congested for a few weeks now, he hasn't had that much of an appetite and it's been hard for him to breathe and nurse at the same time. For the past few days he's refused nursing altogether. If I offer him the breast, he either looks away or bites me. (With his tooth!)

I could try to pump even more, but I don't think I'm up for it. I'm so tired all the time as it is, and swamped at work. (And I'll be honest, I hate pumping.) He's already on formula -- we were doing about 2/3 milk and 1/3 formula when I started working, then we slipped to half and half, and we're now approaching 1/3 milk and 2/3 formula. I think I'm going to throw in the towel.

One reason I wanted to stay home with X for so long was that I was committed to nursing him, and was hoping to go past the 8 months that K lasted before he self-weaned. I thought my supply would stay up for longer after I got back to work, since for six months I breastfed almost exclusively (the last few weeks, he started eating solids and getting one bottle of formula a day so we could introduce it before daycare). But just like last time, as soon as I stopped nursing throughout the day, my milk production started to shut down.   

I feel like I should be happy to be free from the pump, but I'm a little sad that this part of my relationship with X is ending.